This is a poem I wrote at Easter in 2014 and strangely it seems even more relevant in these challenging ‘in-between times’ of uncertainty, darkness, separation and death. Of course people reading this will all believe different things but maybe, as I try to express what Easter means to me personally, it could bring a little hope to others in these times.
They say the sun shines
on the righteous and the unrighteous.
And I’m grateful that it does
because it shines on me
and I’m both.
As I eat banana and bacon pancakes
by the sea
on Easter Saturday
I marvel at the grace
of His sunshine on me.
Here in the in-between place
between Good Friday and Easter Day
between sacrifice and restoration
between loss and great gain
between separation and reunification
between seeming defeat and overwhelming triumph
between death and new life.
In this in-between space,
His friends had to wait,
had to sit in the unknowing
and crushing disappointment
in the devastating silence.
It’s here in this space
that the mysterious happened:
the glorious and baffling exchange.
for His glory.
Maybe my brain doesn’t fully ‘get’ it
but my heart has certainly experienced it.
It’s here that I get to lay down
all in me that’s not right
everything that’s ‘unrighteous’
all that’s not His wonderful way.
I lay down my fears
I give him all the hidden ugliness of my heart.
And it’s here
that he takes it onto himself
at unimaginably high cost.
Then as the sun dawns on Easter Sunday
and life smashes through death
it’s now that he gives me in return
what I don’t deserve
what I could never earn.
Fullness of life
and the privilege
of the offer
of a life changing relationship
with the creator of the universe
with the most compassionate and humble man who ever lived
with the source of peace and love.
of right relationship with Him:
not forced on me
but if I receive it
my life will never be the same.
A ‘mission impossible’:
to bring wholeness and restoration in the world, as He did
only possible through His power at work inside me.
And so on this day of triumph
I choose afresh
I choose full life
and accept the mission that’s impossible without Him.
I step deeper into the adventure
where my life has meaning and purpose
where it’s possible to break free from the stuff that holds me back
where I’m aware of His loving presence: real, alive, powerful
where there’s a gift of peace under-girding even the hardest times.
I step into the adventure
where extra-ordinary things could happen
and amazingly they often do.
Copyright Hilary Murdoch 2014. All rights reserved.