Can it be so?
It doesn’t seem right
that up is down
and down is up,
that being at the bottom is being at the top
and being at the top is being at the bottom.
That the first shall be last
and the last shall be first.
That to lead you must serve
and that if you want to be great
you must be the least,
considering others better than yourself.
Insecure leaders need a title, position,
significance through what they achieve.
Secure leaders pick up a towel and serve
investing in others to make them great.
What a profound challenge,
so counter to all the world says.
It blows right out of the water
all desire for recognition
Smashes any hint of pride.
It’s not a simple request.
And no one gives a more radical example than He does.
None of us came from as high as He did
And none of us can imagine going so low.
Can it be so,
that when you are weak you are strong?
But when you think you are strong
you are heading for a fall?
If Jesus said it
I guess it’s true
but it’s baffling to me.
Can it really be true
that now, as I feel so weak
so worn out, so drained, so empty,
past the end of myself;
can it be so
that right now
His strength is made perfect in me?
Doesn’t feel like it.
Feels pretty uncomfortable to be honest.
I’d rather be strong,
and have plenty of myself left to give.
But now, as I feel I have nothing to offer
now my dependence on Him is real,
and so anything I give
must be directly from Him
so He gets the glory, not me.
And as I am held and vulnerable
He comes through for me
and I can see it more clearly.
maybe it is so
that up is down
and down is up.
Maybe I don’t need to fight it
or figure it out
but embrace the crazyness
and accept the radical challenge
of this inside out
place where He is king.
“Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all. For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve and to give his life as a random for many.” Mark 10:42-45
“My Grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness” 2 Corinthians 12:9.
All poems and original writing on this blog are Copyright © Hilary Murdoch 2013